Friday, January 4, 2013

Absent - Missing that Divine Connection

Has there ever been a time in your life where you've felt disconnected?

No matter how hard you meditate, no matter how many times you pray or say a blessing, no matter how elaborate or simple you make your ritual... you feel nothing.

It can leave you feeling very alone... and that's a sad feeling.

No worries though! Almost everyone goes through one or more of these times in their life, when they can't feel a connection to the divine.

You might find yourself asking, "Ok, but how do I get out of this funk?"

The answer is not to push yourself harder. Obviously there is some sort of block.

Maybe you have too much going on in your life to let yourself feel the energy around you.

A few months ago, I was feeling this block. There was so much going on at home and at work and I couldn't control it all. At the same time I was attempting to honor the God and Goddess as well as meditate. Nothing was coming through. I could not feel anything, not even my spirit guide whom I've had a strong connection to for as long as I can remember.

I pushed and pushed and pushed. I told myself that I just needed to try harder, but it was like running against a brick wall. I was feeling disappointed and lost. Had I really lost my Gods? Had I lost my ability to hear my guides? No, I really hadn't, but it was like I was standing in the middle of busy Los Angeles traffic, while trying to hear my guides and the Goddess and God, but screaming at the cars at the same time. There's no way I'm going to feel anything other than frustration.

Eventually I realized that I had to let things go, internally and externally. Once I realized that, things started happening in my life to help me. Even though I loved having my nephew at our home and trying to help him through a rough patch in his life, it was better for our family that his mom decided to take him back to her home. My pregnancy slowly got better. I also tried not to force myself into elaborate rituals and honoring ceremonies to the God and Goddess. I began again at the basics of meditation and honoring the divine. Slowly things began opening up in my mind and I began to once again feel the connection.

If you ever feel like your in a place like this, take a step back, even if it's for just five minutes. If you can, sit outside and listen to nature or watch the clouds. Clear your mind of everything, but again, don't force it. Acknowledge the thought or feeling and let it pass, don't dwell on it. If you can't get outside, try taking time before bed at night and sit with a candle. Just focus on your breathing and the soft candlelight. Even if you're used to long meditation sessions, starting over with little ones and increasing them can be immensely helpful in centering yourself again and opening yourself up to the divine.

Reconnecting yourself is like cleaning out a cluttered house. It's a big task and if you try to do it all at once, you're going to get burnt out. Start in a small corner and clean there; Then slowly make your little clean space a little bigger.

Before you know it, your mental house will be clean and organized again - plenty of room for inviting conversation with the divine.


  1. Thank you for sharing this. I went through a similar experience that lasted for years. Mine wasn't built from the same blocks as yours, but because I'd been attempting to put God in a box. Once I stopped expecting certain things and began to relax and let them come to me on their own, I really began to grow spiritually. I'm happy to hear that you've worked through your rough patch. Brightest Blessings!

    1. Thank you for sharing your different experience with this as well. After I wrote this, I thought of all the ways or reasons someone could feel like they've lost that connection (or can't find it). Such a huge topic to try to sum up. Blessings to you also!

  2. Very nice and insightful. Its nice to know that there are some who share my similar experiences. I know this intellectually, but I sometimes can't accept it. :)